Saturday, August 28, 2010

Drama.?

What is it these days with people in my town. Everyone starts drama and i always end up getting sucked into it. I don't understand. I don't like this crap at all. People are stupid. My new thing is if you can't deal with me and keep me out of your drama...leave me the fuck alone. I don't recognize someone cuz i haven't seen them in a long time and i get remarks made to me than i get annoyed and i'm the bad guy.? how the fuck does that happen.? do people think before they speak anymore.? they need to realize if they just say shit without thinking than they will just end up in trouble in their life. Sometimes resulting in fights, drama, or even jail... Now i also have a guy named corey trying to come back into my life. Is it for real.? does he really wanna be friends or is he going to fuck me over again and talk shit behind my back again. he says he's sorry but i'm finding it hard to trust him when he says that. i will never get it...people aren't making any sense these days. i know that if i let him in my life again he will probably end up stabbing me in the back...i could be wrong but could you blame me for feeling this way.? i mean it's not like he hasn't done it before...i don't know anymore. i don't know why i am asking you all these questions but its my only sense of venting i guess you could call it...If people read my tweets on twitter or my facebook profile i may seem like a miserable suicidal person but im really not...i love my life and i love myself. its the people around me in my life that i'm growing to not be able to stand...Kids my age just don't know how to handle their drama lately and they seem to suck me into it pretty much every time.Its not my fault...i'm not going to say it's never my fault but a majority of the time it's not my fault. Sometimes i walk right into it. Sometimes it finds me...But all in all my life is great and i have amazing parents who sometimes get on my nerves but who's parents aren't like that.My mother is a dumbass but i love her to death and my dads a douche sometimes well...he's a douche sometimes and occasionally i love him to death sometimes i just love his dumbass. People should realize not to trust all their friends 100% cuz a friend could always end up stabbing you in the back. You're parents will always (depending on your situation with them) be there for you no matter what. to help you through the hard times and to make you smile and feel amazing in the good times.One day these drama starters in my life will learn the only people you can always trust is their parents because everyone out there is willing to do anything to get to the top whether it means hurting you in the process or not...your parents will always be there to pick you right back up when you fall...unless you have a bad relationship with your parents than they will most likely kick you while you're down. but i know everytime i fall my parents will pick me right back up and help me in any way they can to make me be me again. and not some loser who just sits around and follows the crowd. if there is one thing in life i have learned its, live your life for yourself and no one else...put your happiness first and everyone elses second. because you deserve to be happy in life no matter who says anything. if someone is willing to tell you to change you should be willing to say goodbye forever because you gotta live your life the way YOU WANT...not anybody else.like Bon Jovi says "Its my life...Its now or never, i aint gonna live forever" and that saying couldn't be any more true than it is. Sometimes you have to find the answers to your happiness by following your heart and doing what you know will make you happy. even if it means you have to push people out of your life and out of your way.